Wednesday, November 9, 2011

Come Back. I Can't Stand. .


Tersentuh sangat. .


Lagi2 bila baca pendapat ayat ni. . 


 saya tak dambakan zaujah solehah..cukuplah saya dan si dia nanti sama2 nak berubah lebih baik, ubah sikap sama2..belajar sama2 ke arah jalan yg lebih lurus..tuntun jalan bersama2..tua bersama2..susah senang bersama2..jika dia dah awal2 solehah, saya pasti rasa rendah diri n sy terkejar2 utk jadi soleh utk mengiringi dia..kejar2 ni penat..kejar kejap pastu tersungkur putus asa..hmm..





Monday, November 7, 2011

sms seorang ibu

Salam. Anak2 ibu. Btapa pilu n sedihnya hati ibu bila trdengar suara takbir bergema. Anak2 ibu tiada disisi ibu. Teringat kenangan silam waktu kita bersama dulu. Kemeriahan begitu terasa tapi tahun ini pertama kali ibu beraya tanpa anak disisi. Sedih sepi tidak lgi melihat senyuman manja n manis serta keayuan ank2 perempuan ibu. Begitu juga kehenseman satu2nya ank lelaki ibu yg selalu ibu rindui. Ketika ini air mata penyesalan menjadi teman ibu di pagi hari mengiringi suara takbir bergema. Ibu pohon seribu kemaafan dan keampunan darimu ank2 ku. Keriuhan tawa ank2 sedara ibu semakin menyentuh hati kalbu ibu. Semakin kuat mengingati mu wahai ank2 kesayanganku. Hanya air mata kesedihan menemani ibu. Menjadi teman ibu ketika ini. Anak2 ku. Kasih sayang ibu xpenah luntur walau sesaat di hati ini. Hanya Allah yg Maha Mengetahui apa yg tersirat dan tersurat. Ibu xdpt nak meneruskan luahan hati dalam sms ini lagi. Harapan ibu dipagi ini. Ank2 ibu tersenyum manis walaupun tanpa ibu disisi. Ibu masih di katil sepi seorang diri. Peluk cium dari ibu untk mu whai ank2 kesayangan ku. Salam utk semua yg ada di sana. Moga2 Allah sentiasa merahmati dan melindungi anak2 ibu. Ampunkan dosa2 ibu. Peluklah ibu sayang. Bayangkan dalam hatimu. Amin.


Luahan hati seorang ibu. Semoga engkau tabah kawanku. . InsyaAllah.


Allah tidak membebani seseorang melainkan apa yg terdaya olehnya. . . [Al-Baqarah : 286]

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Sunday, November 6, 2011

OMG Tagged!

Well, it has been such a long time since I did the 'tagging' thingy.
I thought the era was over already.
But yeah I was wrong. It is coming back to me now!
Oh people. .I felt that. The feeling of being left out from the bloggers' world.
I noticed this happened because I've lost most of my dear blogger friends since I've left this blog for such a long time. This makes me feel so sad. . I miss everyone of you people. . 
However, this blog still continues the journey to share the words with random people passing by here and of course to you as well, IF TEHRE IS, the faithful reader ((:


Never mind, straight away to the topic!
Well, I got this tagged from Sue (:
Thanks honey! I'll try to do wholeheartedly okay :D 




Rules
1. You must post these rules.
2. Each person must post 11 things about themselves in their journal.
3. Answer the questions the tagger set for you in their post. And create eleven new questions for the people you tagged to answer.
4. You have to choose 11 people to tag and link them on the post.
5. Go to their page and tell them you have tagged HIM/HER.
6. No tag back!
7. No stuff in the tagging section about 'YOU ARE TAGGED IF YOU ARE READING THIS' YOU LEGITIMATELY (a.k.a REALLY, TRUST, WILL ALL HONESTLY) have tagged 11 people.




11 things about me. 

1) I am a kind of people that can't live without internet even just a day. Really I will barely able to stand without it since I've taken the internet as my third husband. Hoho walaweeeey :D But yes, it is seriously. I'm not playing around people. I used internet to gain variety kind of knowledge, to get the tarbiyah that I need for the rest of my life and the most important one is to always keep contacting with my loves :') (Whatsapp! It's freeee) One thing I wanna confess here is that, through internet, I've been passing the changes phase. I learned a lot to be a human from my third husband (since my first and second husband only can be seen in the future hee~) BUT BUT BUT, have to bear this in mind, once we misuse the internet, we gotta get harms from it. Somewhat, the internet could be my greatest challenge on how I can control myself from the bad matters. *peaaacee

2) Is pink color always related to girlish version of lady? I don't care. I do still love PINK ((((:
But I'm not really addicted to it because sometimes I prefer white color for things like gadgets and cars.

3) I love kids! Ha'a ha'a yeaaahh :D They are all so cuteeee you know that rightt. They are innocent. They have no sins. They are new in this challenging world that need to be shaped by their parents. It is not an easy task to do in order to get a good result. Parents need the sense of sensitivity towards their responsibility. They are all 'amanah' given by our Lord (: Treating the kids always makes me smile. Haha that's for now Dila, but when it becomes to your own kids, only then you know the real meaning of treating. Uhuk uhuk that is what someone's said to me. Kind of truee. It's challenging!

4) Of all fruits we have in this world, banana is the most fruit that I prefer. Is it because of baby milo? Wohooo :D

5) I love chocolate so much! No matter in what means and shape. 
Cadbury Black Forest is the most preferable (:


6) I am phobia with any kind of insects. 

7) I love to play with Velcro tape. Only people that are really close to me can understand this habit.
Kecek2 ^____^

8) Oh yeaah I want to talk about my second husband which is a kitchen! :D If one day I could get the husband like what I have seen in IKEA's showroom, it would be a greatest pleasure for me, my dear first husband. Toiingg3. Haha *giggling* By the way, it is just my highest dream. The simple one still okay for me. Anything will do, as long as it is comfortable to work with (:

9) I enjoy reading novels and any materials that can be beneficial for myself. I currently addicted to a writer named Hlovate. Seriously I recommend novel's lovers to read Hlovate's novels. You'll find the awesomeness later ;D

10) I am truly a sensitive person. Or in other words I can say, I can easily get touched. But, I could also easily  squeeze to the normal situation back. For example, if someone's scolding me, I could cry instantly and then wiping the tears, saying to myself, never mind I can handle this. Haha weird right. Maybe I  just want to express what I felt first before feeling the sense of relief then.


11) I love to watch movies. But I can't watch them alone. I've tried it many times and I failed to understand the stories. Thus, I actually need friends to watch movies together with me. And and people, obviously this is not a cinema movie okay ;D What I mean is a movie that I want to watch at home. I hope the friend that I mentioned is a hubby that will accompany me in the future :D


Awww enough Dila. 11 already ^_^



Okay now, questions to be answered from Sue:

1. Being cool or adorable?
Being cool is way better for me perhaps. 

2. Kenangan terindah?
Bila rasa iman pada tahap yg tinggi which is susah sangat nak dapat. Serious rinduu dengan kenangan tu. Tapi tak mustahil untuk dicapai balik. Kena sentiasa usaha. .

3. What is definition between man and football?
Can I define it like woman and shopping? haha :D

4. Do you like pink colour? Why?
Gocha sebijik terkena soalan ni. Hee~ Because for me, pink is a soft color. What if I ask you back, why do you like (for example) brown color? You will answer base on your interest right? I just don't understand, why pink has becoming a significant color to be asked by people #_# 

5. What is language the most that you want to learn?
ARABIC! I really hope one day I could get the opportunity to learn it.

6. Why do you think you are weird? If not, why?
If you have finished reading 11 things about me as stated above, you'll find the answer yourself. It is the same answer with why I find myself weird as well (:

7. What are you in the next 5 years? Why are you really confidence with it?
I am a wife already insyaAllah. Because I've set a target to get marry in that particular timeline. 

8. What type do you want when searching for a perfect partner?
A partner that can bring me together to the Jannah.

9. If you told by someone that you are smelly, how do you react?
Firstly, I will say terribly sorry to that someone for the inconvenience. Then I would try as hard as I can to change myself by consistently wearing perfume or etc (not really preferable because I'm a girl, can't wear it too much)

10. Status? Do you feel comfortable with your status now? Why?
Not really. Because I don't feel safe.

11. Your plan for your future?
Can prove to myself and others too that I can be in a minority group.
Being able to give a balance attention between husband, children, work and responsibility towards Islam.
Suami didahulukan, pencapaian diutamakan :D (quoted from a movie)
insyaAllah. It is really a challenging task! Keep praying Dila. .
Furthermore, I dreamt to do phD together with him if God's will.


FINISH DEAR! (((:
(btw, I can't fulfill rule number 4 and onwards. .)
I don't have much time syg. Maaaf2.
Plus, I don't have enough 'bloggerian' to be tagged #_#


p/s : I am intentionally didn't put any picture or anything else that can make this post attractive. Because by doing that, only certain people can really bear to read this long, unimportant post ;D






Friday, October 28, 2011

Why Should I Marry You?


This is really such a good article that I've taken from here (:
The best words I've ever found for the thing that I've been looking for so long.

(Take note that I just took the significant part of the story. So, if you eager to know more, you can read by your own on its site ^_^ )


 The young man said, firstly I asked her, who do you love the most? she said, her mother. The parents said so, what is wrong with that?? The young man said, ‘no one, is Muslim, until he loves Allah, and his messenger (saw) more than anyone else in the world’. If a woman loves Allah and the Prophet (pbuh) more than anyone, she will love me and respect me, and stay faithful to me, because of that love, and fear for Allah (swt). And we can share this love, because this love is greater than lust for beauty. The young man said, then I asked her, you read a lot of qur’an, can you tell me the meaning of any surah? And she said no, because I haven’t had time yet. so I thought of that hadith ‘ALL humans, are dead except for those who have knowledgeShe has lived 20 years and not found ANY time, to seek knowledge, why would I marry a woman, who does not know her rights, and responsibilities, and what will she teach my children, except how to be negligent, because the woman IS the madrasa (school) and the best of teachers. And a woman who has no time for Allah, will not have time for her husband. The third question I asked her was, that a lot of girls, more prettier than her, had approached me for marriage, why should I choose you?..That is why she stormed off, getting angry. The young man’s parents said that is a horrible thing to say, why would you do such a thing, we are going back there to apologise. The young man said I said this on purpose, to test whether she could control her anger. The Prophet (saw) said ‘do not get angry, do not get angry, do not get angry’ when asked how to become pious; because anger is from Satan. If a woman cannot control her anger with a stranger she has just met,do you think she will be able to control it with her husband??

So truuuuuuuuuuuuuuueeee people. .
Such an inspiring motivation to become a good wife for the future. insyaAllah.

This note is flexible. It can be applied for both ways. Woman seeking a man as well (:





Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Tsk Tsk Tsk T_T

Serious tengah tension sangaaaaat3 ni ya Allah. .
Apa aku da buat agaknyaaa. .
Main godeeeh2 HTML code kat website CSG yg berbayar tuu sampai ter'LOCK'!
Dah taktau camne nak jadikan kembali pada asaaaal. .
The website has been LOCKED.
Takleh bukak cara normal. .
Search kat internet solution camne, tapi tak paham camne nak buat. Bahasa computer betuul
FTP la PHP la CPANEL la WP-FTP la

Nak nangeeessss seriouuusss. .
Semalam satu hari kerjakan blog tuu. Dah nak siap. Tinggal touch up2 je. Sekali kena LOCKED.
Just sebab buang footer :'((((


Masih tengah usaha untuk memahamkan solution yg perlu dibuat. .
ya Allah semoga semuanya dapat kembali pada asal.
Walaupun kena edit balek semua.
Takpela asalkan da boleh log in.
If not, really I have to be responsible with what had happened.
Website berbayar tuu eemm T__T

Hampir dua hari masa habis mengadap ni je. . .





Sunday, October 23, 2011

Yes, I'm feeling so far from you

Friend,
I know I'm far right now.
And I know this gonna be continuously happened from time to time.
This semester is the kick-start for everything.
When I have to live separately with you.
Even just a stone throw away from here. Just one room separated.
I really felt the distance.
At first I just accepted it because I believe that it will give benefits to others.
BUT as time goes by, I realized that unfortunately it gave harms to myself. .

Friend, you know what, I am now like a silence girl that can't express any of my feelings anymore.
And this happened because I don't have anybody to do like that since you've been far.
Lucky that you have a friend whom you can date with always :')
a friend that you can live everybody else whenever you see her :')
And I felt so touched and far away whenever I see that happened in front of my eyes. .

Forgive me for that I can't stand with all these anymore. .
Because of the distance that I felt. 
Because of myself that can't express anything anymore, my problem and etc.
Yes, I've turned to be a quiet girl already.
I hold the feeling myself.
I suffer with my life and problems myself.
And that gonna be okay insyaAllah.
Because I know I should rely on Him the most. .

I'm so sorry my dear friend for all my wrongdoings.
My feelings might be wrong.
Of course you have your own reasons for all that happening right? :)



Mcm sy penah cakap dgn sorang ni jugak.
Sy tgh mengalami masalah kesunyian.
Kawan sy da ada orang lain.
Sy da ta geti.
True that bukan dia sorang je kawan yg sy ada.
Tapi dia sorang je kawan yg btul2 boleh masuk dgn routine sy.
Dan bila sy hilang tuu, sy rasa tak boleh berdiri. .
Tapi sekarang insyaAllah saya tgh belajar :')



-Ttibe teringat ttg satu event ni-
I've been cancelled from having any 'adik2'
(Not being cancelled, actually we have to choose. But since the other person seems so difficult to drop the position and at the same time 'akak' has been waiting for the answer for so long, then I took the decision to drop mine)
No one know how sad I felt during that morning. .
But I know I have to strongly believe that there is always a hidden hikmah for everything. insyaAllah.




Saturday, October 15, 2011

Mentaliti Zaman Kini


DISCLAIMER
this post is totally copied from here 
bacalah. tak rugi, serious bemanfaat. kalau boleh hadam, sesama kita hadam ;D
(credit kepada tuan punya blog. sangat comel post ni ^_^)





orang putih kata mindset.
tak pun paradigm = how we look at things.

mungkin nampak simple.
tetapi haruslah diingat...
bagai dosa kecik yg dibuat, lama-lama jadi besar bukit jua.
ohooii..

benda-benda remeh yg kadangnya terlepas pandang, 
efeknya mungkin besar, 
mungkin merebak. 
mungkin berjangkit.. bila parah... susah nak rawat. 
kata prevention is better than cure
eh?

mentaliti orang2 kita yg femes sekarang, 
ingin sekali aku dan mereka yg bersama-sama denganku tune mindset biar jadi betul...



1. ibadah itu hanyalah sembahyang fardhu, puasa, zakat, dan tunaikan haji.

"Dan (ingatlah) Aku tidak menciptakan jin dan manusia melainkan untuk mereka menyembah dan beribadat kepadaKu." Az-Zariyat, 51:56.
ketahuilah kalian, ibadah itu adalah 24/7 hidup kita.
tidur itu ibadah.
kerja itu ibadah.
makan itu ibadah. 
belajar itu ibadah.
menutup aurat itu ibadah.
main fesbuk itu ibadah. ehh? 
kalau menggunakannya dengan cara yg betul.

ada rasa nampak view yg indah lagi luas?

yg penting berbalik kepada niat. niat betul, cara betul. semuanya baru jadi betul.



2. orang muda sekarang lebih suka berbincang tentang kapel/gf/bf/cinta berbanding masalah2 besar lain.
contoh senang dekat,  boleh tengok home facebook masing2.
link pasal apa yg suka/femes dikongsikan?

tak. aku tak kata sharing tuh salah. bagus sebenarnya kalau dah benda tu memang bagus.
serius tak tipu. 
cumanya, dari apa yg aku nampaklah kan...
people want to accept something rather than giving.
contohlah kan. si perempuan akan post pasal ciri-ciri lelaki yg osem untuk dibuat suami.
wallaaaah weh.. siapa yg tak mahu kalau dapat ciri2 yg dalam list?
tapi..tapi.. kenapa tidak diri sendiri yg berusaha menjadi perempuan solehah idaman jejaka semua?

tahukah anda, perempuan solehah di donia itu lebih dicemburui oleh bidadari sorga? *wink.wink.
barulah yg baik dapat yg baik...

sama jaaa... sebuaya-buaya lelaki pon mesti nak cari perempuan baik jadi isteri. 
heh. sungguh tidak gentleman lagi layak dibuat suami, *unless kalau dah bertaubat, dan berubah jadi osem. hohoi
sesungguhnya, manusia itu fitrahnya sukakan kebaikan, benda baik, 
apabila fitrah itu dilawan jadilah banyak benda buruk.
kan?

"Lu orang yang masih dalam dilema cinta manusia, kapel-clatch-kapel-clatch, awek curang, balak pasang lain, cinta tak kesampaian dan segala masalah dunia. Lu orang kena tahu, lu orang dah ketinggalan jauh. Orang sekarang ni dalam masalah agama, masalah akidah. Masalah macam mana mau cari jalan masuk syurga." credit resource

masalah sekarang masalah akidah... muslim hanya pada nama, tidak pada amalan dan perbuatan.
sebab apa punca semua ni? 

dan kita masih ada masa goyang kaki lepak tak peduli? -_-"
dan tak bermaksud aku di sini menolak langsung isu cinta.
tak. cumanya orang selalu salah guna, salah erti, salah cara... dan aku menolak apa-apa yg salah.
menerima apa yg betul.
oh, kejar cinta Ilahi itu tetap lebih utama sekalipun telah berumah dan bertangga. 
*tapi yg ini lah orang selalu abai...kan.


3.dakwah itu hanyalah yg berstatus ustaz/tabligh/ustazah.
yalah, mereka tuh kan orang berilmu. hanya orang berilmu yg layak memberi. 
habis tuh, nak tunggu cukup ilmu, tahun bilanya nak start memberi?
nabi pesan, "sampaikanlah dariku walaupun satu ayat,"
kalaulah seorang sampaikan kepada seorang, kemudian menjadi dua orang,
tiga, empat, puluh, ratus. bla3.. :D 
kan senang?
*tapi tak ramai yg sedar hal ini. sila menangis sekarang. T.T

4. orang muda tak layak bagi pandangan/nasihat kepada orang tua.
fuuh... kononnya orang yg lebih muda tak cukup pengalaman,
jadi kau duduk diam-diam, dengar.
orang tua lebih dahulu makan garam. mesti lagi tahu.
betuuuul.
tapi... menolak mentah2 pendapat/idea orang lain tanpa difikirkan dahulu
mungkin boleh dikira agak sombong di situ.
sekalipun dia hanyalah seorang budak.
mana tahu apa yg dia suarakan itu betul.

sedangkan ketika surah Al-Nasr diturunkan (surah terakhir yg turun), 
Saiyidina Umar meminta Abdullah bin Abbas menafsirkan surah Al-Nasr. 
Abdullah bin Abbas, ketika itu masih lagi budak, kompem2lah jauh lagi muda dari para sahabat.
nak bandingkan dengan ilmu, apalah sangat budak ada kan?
tapi Allah turunkan hikmah pada seseorang itu tak dikira umurnya.
boleh jadi sesiapa sahaja.
semua para sahabat berasa gembira apabila surah ini turun. (boleh cek tafsir sebab apa)
tetapi hanya dengan satu tafsiran Abdullah bin Abbas, semua para sahabat menangis. 
katanya, surah ini menandakan tugas rasulullah s.a.w. telah berakhir dan akan wafat ...


5.buku 'aku terima nikahnya' hanyalah untuk orang yg nak kahwin/dah kahwin.
heeeh...... mananya don jaj a buk bai its kaver? 

kalau niat setakat melawak tuh, bolehlah terima.
ini siap buat muka terkejut, dan orang yg tak berkenaan tak layak baca lagi. *over*
oh, ini realiti namanya. 
jika wujudnya manusia2 begini di sekeliling anda,
feel free untuk guna tips saya,

sambil tersenyum paling ikhlas, tanyakan kembali kepada beliau.

'sudahkah anda membacanya, sehingga anda berkata begitu?'

haha. orang yg sudah baca kompem tak akan kata macam tuh.
bagai orang yg tak tengok movie, tapi semangat lebih nak review movie tu. mana boleeeh cek. -___-"
tak fair wa tak aci.

tahukah anda, saya mendapat satu lagi mentaliti orang kita dalam buku itu?
iaitu;


6. kita tak boleh tanya banyak soalan, sebab memang macam tuh.
kaaan? 
contoh : kecik2 dulu, 
'kalau tanya kenapa tak boleh duduk atas bantal?'
nanti bisul.
'kenapa tak boleh tidur meniarap sambil angkat kaki?'
nanti mak mati.
bila makin banyak soalan, 
'eh,janganlah banyak tanya, cepuk kang baru tahu.'
diam.
dan membesarlah dengan mindset, 'tak boleh banyak tanya, tak boleh.'
oh...kesian.
padahal, dalam islam, sangatlah digalakkan untuk berfikir,
kebenaran islam itu dibuktikan dengan memandang alam dan berfikir,
 "Tidakkah kamu berakal untuk memikirkannya?" Al-Baqarah 2:76
selebihnya, belilah sendiri buku aku terima nikahnya ni dan baca.
aku baca pon sebab ada orang promote, dan housemate ada. bodoh namanya kan kalau tak baca?

yg aku suka, sebab cerita banyak pasal society, pasal ragam orang yg pelbagai, pasal thoughts, how to deal with problems, pasal family, pasal responsibilty. highly recommended for everybody
*perlu tak highlight everybody tuh? ahaaa..
.




baru sikit.. rasanya kalau nak list semua, boleh buat ensyklopedia kot.. ngeh.

p/s first step pon tak lepas lagi, macam mana nak dapat yg ke-7? -_-"

tangga maratib amal. 



bagaimana? bergaya bukan? (:
wake up people! lets wake up together! change this kind of mentality.
kita generasi yg mampu mengubah insyaAllah.
nak panjat tangga sampai tingkat ketujuh ni.  ayuh!

(erk buku aku terima nikahnya belum beli lagi ni.  Hehe okaay I'll read it sooooooon )