31st of July 2011

I used to think that. .

sometimes life is cruel,

because of the problems I need to face.
sometimes life is unfair,

because not everyone can feel the happiness.

sometimes life is nothing,
because I've lost the feeling of having a family.

but since I know you. .

Slowly. . All these perceptions were fade.
You brought me a different meaning of life.
Which is the purpose I've been created.
Yes, you didn't even notice that.
Because it was happening inside me.

From the first time we met.
At your house.
Until now.
From no intention at all.
Until the intention because of Allah.
And I hope it will last long forever.

And all these,

I must admit. It comes from our Lord.
He sent you to guide me.
He sent you to give life to me.
YES. IT WAS INDIRECTLY.

You gave me the love. .

you gave me the hope. .

You gave me the trust. .

You shine me with your light. .

You cheered me when I was sad. .

You brought me the happiness. .

You reminded me when I forgot. .
Indeed, even trillions of thank you can't replace all these. .
And I must say thanks to Him the most.

Our creator and The Giver of these Gifts.

But now. . .

Trust me. Believe me.

I am not that far as you are imagining.
I am not that far for you to catch. .

I am not thaattt far from you.
He just make us from a different story.

*Tears, please don't fall. You're about to finish your words Dila*

But maybe this one thing would help.

Could I consider the 5months timeline as the reminder from Him?
in order for us to get a blessing relationship for the upcoming long journey.
before the exact time comes?
Together we pray. insyaAllah.

And I am so sorry for all the mistakes I've done. .

This is a test, and we'll get through it.

Please, together we get mature. . I need you always. .